this is seriously a joke

there are certain things that are happening in my life now that has literally rendered me speechless.
and it seems like the very existence of me itself poses problem to the very problem itself.
which ironically means i have to excuse myself out of the picture.
to supposedly make things right.

and arguments and disputes will always linger,
a painful memory,
a piercing thought.
and the very bond between two people hinges on the credibility of one,
saying, i promise to make things right, and i will not say such things again.
how often does change come so easily?

just because you got someone upset,
you'l decide to change and you will change?

im not gonna make demands for changes.
it'll seem like i'm doing permanent damage.
on the contrary, i'm the one that is holding you down.
not you.