there ARE always exceptions right

I dont know about the rest of the people my age.
or the rest of the people around my age.

but i always wake up feeling if this is really the path of life that i want.
Do i really wanna lead such a life?

This is not g0ing to be a sad post.
Cause I'm reminiscing, or you can say reflect or pondering.

I look back at the life that ive lead so far.
Im turned off by the monotonous life that i'm leading.
I see the spark that has been ignited flickering and dying.

19 years Ive spent in Singapore.
19 years to be able to explore. But to no avail, not fully explored.

such a feeling i do not know how to explain.
The feeling of going out does not seem appealing to me anymore.
All due to one word, curfew. curfew.
SO what if im going out,
even if i step out of the house, you can still see the invisible handcuffs and legcuffs around my four limbs.
life is too short,
and its more inevitable now, because im getting god damm older.

HOW can i do the things that i wanna do when i turn 21 or 23.
the older i get, the more responsibilities i have.
all life is being slowly sucked out.

the vibrant wednesday mornings
the mac breakfast.
the little evening dinners at coffeeshops.
the afternoon movies.
the devoted attention.

imissallthese.

its such a painful process growing up.


sometimes its much better to just say the very words that your love one wants to hear.
because these words may just be the very words that renews and re-ignites the relationship.