is this growth?

does coming to terms with an aspect of your life make you a more mature person?
i think that's commendable growth.
well to me at least.

ive, managed to put away a certain integral part of my life, which i did not intend for it to have a permanent infusion of my life.
I understand patronization now. to its full entirety.'
like they say, knowledge is somewhat liberating.

and im sorry that i may have gotten sidelined by the lesser important things in life.
sheepish to say that i may have forgotten to stopped and just see, just how much i do love you.
love that has been trampled and stampeded, is probably greater love than acquiring new love.
but please, not all tribulations can be emerged out my heart to be scratch free and brand new.
i hope you hold to your promise, and i'll bite my tongue and hold mine.

what's life without a little edge of precarious-ness
lest to say,
i need to tell you this.
when one entrusts one's life in someone's hands.
all consequences are undoubtedly needed to be held wholly responsible by the person's hands as well.
(just a little side note)

i dont know if i made the right decision
but im still following what my heart tells me to.
so long as my heart continues to beat for you.
im still here. (: