why am i so careless as to have ink on my braun buffel wallet :(

dear Braun Buffel,
im so sorry that i inked you, literally.
it really irks me whenever i take out my wallet to pay for stuff.
HOMG. im gonna get lemon to wash it off now. hope it works.

and the journey to the start of my overseas holiday aint gg so well.
mummy, stop dropping the not so subtle hints abt me sleeping where, sleeping with who.
CMON LAH.
who's the one with the dirty thoughts and crazy imagination.
ive assured you, but you just dont trust me.
please, just let me grow up.
im sorry that i have to tell you a partial half truth

well, i told you the whole truth initially
but you couldnt handle the truth
so im just gotta fabricate a story
to make my life easier, cause ure getting on my nerves.
and probably make ure life easier as well

if you try to follow me somehow.
and if you try to call me (for sure)
i'm not gonna be remorseful
cause i have no need to be.

all i wanted was a holiday to be away from my family
to be away from work, away from training
away from all the buzz and hectic shit.
and the least you could do is respect my decision in the people i choose with.
its not like i'm going w a stranger.

how am i gonna grow up if you keep shadowing me like this all the time.
im sick of it

if it takes you to be mad at me so that you will let me go.
i will take that chance.

in the past,
whenever i lie about who i'm with,
i get so frantic and worried that you will find out

now not anymore,
seriously, there's nothing wrong in going with my bf,
much less inappropriate,
ironically, it would be inappropriate if the guy im going with is not my bf.
i seriously dont see why i need to feel remorse.