i wish you can give me the security i deserve.

You know how, you started a day,
a normal day,
every other day.
you walk along the same route to work,
and somehow a thought just strikes you
something which you have tried your very best to block it out,
but it just lingers, and multiplies.
letting you experience a sour aftertaste of a bitter memory.

sometimes i think you've broken me too many times.
and the things you do to piece me up, werent done too well.
or sometimes, werent even done at all.

I really hope that this time would be the last,
so that my healing process would thereby see an end.
You may see a smile now,
but the heart never really heals,
until it sees another,
fully committed, devoted and trustworthy.

you have to earn it, to get it.