sometimes you just want to see the things you want to see

dont tell me to give up just like that,
i know its very expensive.
a monetary burden,
with every attempt.

but tell me to carry on,
to persevere, not to be pessimistic.
but you of all people,
asking me to forget it?

on a different note.

i have been having migraines and weird tummy aches that seem to mysteriously come and go, as often as they like.
it make me lose my appetite.
i just dont feel like eating anything,
for fear that my stomach will decide to throw a bitch fit again.


if you play, you play for keeps.
i will not be strung around anymore.