when was the last time you saw a ray of hope?

when was the last time you stopped to appreciate the lesser things in life?
when was the last time you felt truely happy?

i truely understood what amylia said when she said a catharsis of emotions comes when you watch 12Lotus.

the true life of an ill-fated child pervades throughout the whole play.

i dont know if its due to my awful sensitivity to songs, movies and plays

but i just felt so purged from the movie to the point

that i cried till my shoulders couldnt stop shaking.

my cries came in chortled yelps, almost to a point where it became so stifling that i felt suffocated.

my outlet to sanity became a trap for wild thoughts.

You'd think that in this world and age, people would be better off.
if we are better off why do we have more and more lessons and classes to learn how to laugh?
Why are advertisements selling 'happiness' to you?
and why is everyone buying and sucking it all up?
Are we that deprived of happiness that we resort to purchasing temporal happiness?

Where we stand today is the mere blind chase on the hedonistic threadmill to chase the never reaching perceived happiness.

Is it worth it?

If it is, what are you worth then?

I hate depressing movies