Loner in love :D

these few days
werent my best days ever

i have come to terms with afew life decisions.
the fact that prelim1 is coming up din make my emotions any better

my relatives are here for the day
and boy did i get hell from my mother

i realise that she was frantic cause the house to her wasnt clean and visitor friendly enough
and so i was there at the right time and right place to receive her short fused anger

and it got me thinking

will i ever be like this? like my mother?
and why is my mum frantically cleaning the house and my dad is just at the sidelines watching soccer previews and lazing on the couch?
would i want my daughter t feel the exact way like im feeling?
would i want her to go through exactly what all sporean kids are going through?

must we follow the aimless cycle of studying, getting a degree, and then getting a supposedly stable job?
is everyone happy doing it?
and the scariest and most disturbing question to me was, if im questioning all this, then why the hell am i in this path? what am i striving for?

i had it with guys and all their logic that its a must for women to learn how to cook.
you think women are instilled with never ending energy?
i told one of my guy friends off, and he rebutted back saying what does women do then if they dont know how to cook.
i mean, if you realise, the role of the man has not really changed.
they are still expected to get a jobn, support the family.
but if the women goes to work, his financial burden would be lesser right?
so ARENT WE doing something here?
so if we decline in the domestic area, then shouldnt the guy take up more?
doesnt it make sense?

im sure there are countless arguments to rebutt the topic that ive just discussed
what im peeved is that some of my guy friends have that mentality that its the girls duty to cook for the family.
WHY CANT IT BE A TWO PERSON JOB?
aiyah, im just sad for my girlfriend, because thats her boyfriend.
so long as its not the mentality of my boyfriend, im somewhat neutral by it

It's still the same old story
Tears and morning glory
No luck
That's the reason why my life sucks
Very much

im trying my hardest to be positive,
but when everything seems bleak
you cant help but crumble along

i need divine intervention
someone send me a fairygod mother please

anyways
on to a more depressing note, LOL
while waiting for nasri and my sister's hair to be cut
i was flipping through old women world mag
and they issued an article on trickster doctors that pretend to have medical expertise
to heal people in the developing countries.
it was downright spine chilling
i was gawking my mouth open from the moment i read the very first paragraph
they did not print a pretty sight at all

these doctors actually play GOD
like literally
and the saddest thing is that these poverty stricken people have complete and utter faith in them
for instance, this middle aged woman was said to be diagnosed with breast cancer
and she was operated in front of the queue of people waiting in line to be operated!
there was no surgery room, no facilities. NA DA
and the supposed surgeon just merely took the knife and slashed the lower part of the woman breast
she was bleeding and the surgeon told her that he removed the cancer already
and she repeatedly thanked him for it

can you see the ridiculousness of the surgeon?
and these people have no idea that they are being operated under someone with absolutely no medical expertise.
the next patient was a guy with kidney failure.
and the surgeon just merely came from behind and slit the right side of his lower body, (the area where his right kidney was situated)
utter shock and grossness. OMG
and the extent of their faith in these so called 'healers' is downright extreme
every patient that visits these doctors are all warned about the magnitude of the pain
to them, the more painful the better
and they dont questiont the doctors, neither do they scream in pain when the doctors operate on them
so outta the world man.

thank god i received education.