2011 will be either good or bad. depending on how you see it.

2011 is a pivotal year,
whether i like it or not.
im going bonkers over the fact that so many things are changing.
and the world shouldn't be revolving too quickly.
humans are flawed creatures.
we cant compete with the complexities of the world.
we move along with it,
not because we want to,
but rather, going with the flow is just easier.

A single mum would rather stick with a guy she doesn't like
than battle the journey alone.

am i suppose to get a new friend
because you are drifting away from me?
or should i hang on.
and wait..
Like what Ive been doing for the past bloody months (it seemed like years to me)

Im always the freak that is waiting.
waiting for all the people around me to change
waiting for you to understand that you are being cheated off completely off your soul.
waiting for someone to quit something - angry - forgive - and wait again.
the cycle never seems to end.

but i can feel that ive had enough
people say i have a big heart.
but that doesnt mean you can expect me to forgive you every time.

everyone has a limit.

you come to me like a tossed up bolster.
whining and coming to me only when you have a problem.
or you expect me to simmer down after a few days.

because : (this must be going through your mind)
wenjia will surely forgive me. shes so nice.
she will understand.

yes. im always the one supposed to understand.
understand your mental state.
coax you and console you.
and never be angry for long.